Daughters of God,

Are you operating from trust or trauma?

In Numbers 14, the Israelites refused to enter the promised land…the land flowing with milk + honey, the land God told them to go in and possess. They refused to enter because they were operating from a place of trauma, not from a place of trust. They wanted to go back to Egypt, the very place they were crying out about in the first place when God heard their cry and decided to do something about it in Exodus 2:23 and Exodus 3:8.

Let’s back up a little…

God chose Moses to lead His people out of Egypt. Moses had to deliver a message to the people. God told him personally, that He would deliver them in Exodus 3:8. Then God told Moses exactly what to say to them in Exodus 6:6-8 and in verse 9 it says that the children of Israel did not heed Moses because of anguish of spirit and cruel bondage. The Hebrew definition for the word anguish translates to shortness or impatience. I quickly googled the definition as well and it says anguish is severe mental or physical pain or suffering, to be extremely distressed. This makes sense, because how many of us become VERY IMPATIENT when we are feeling any amount of pain? This also confirms that the Israelites were operating from a place of trauma, not trust. This is long before they left Egypt and entered the wilderness. So from the jump, this was their disposition because of the trauma they experienced.

Now I ask you, are you operating from a place of trauma or from a place of trust?

Stop looking at the promise through the lens of trauma. What God has for you, where He is bringing you next, is NOTHING like what He just brought you out of. Instead of complaining, allow the wilderness to refine you. Allow it to reveal the things in your heart that cannot go where God is taking you. Those things can’t go with you into the promise. You’re prolonging the process because you fear the pain. You’re prolonging the process because you see it as the problem. It’s not the problem. The process is the path to the promise. It’s time to face it head on and trust that your Father is with you.

Lord, I pray that you reveal every hidden wound that it may be healed in your daughter. I pray that your daughter does not go into her next, with the perspective of her past. I pray that she does not reject the promise because of fear, doubt, unbelief, and expecting it to be just like before. Give her the courage to endure the wilderness, trusting that it won’t always be like this and you WILL bring her into the land flowing with milk and honey.

AMEN.

LESSONS FROM THE ISRAELITES:

1. Don’t allow what you see make you forget what God said.

2. Don’t exalt your feelings over God’s word.

3. Your words hold power. Watch your mouth.

4. There is purpose in the wilderness.

5. Remember where/what God brought you out of.

6. Don’t respond from a place of trauma, but from a place of trust.

7. Don’t allow the “giants” to punk you out of the promise.

8. Don’t look at the promise through the lens of trauma.

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